Sunday, May 8, 2011

9May 2011



Recently did't contact Ah yi maybe busy ba so did't contact him.. I hate people meet me than half way throught go met friend, make me wait so long at a place.. I dunno why when we meet up with ang u always quiet dun wanna talk, when anthony is with us you will also quite but will talk more, is it coz anthony noe how to entertain ppl n angs dunno? Everytime when we 3 or 4 meet together you will emo halfway through.. You should learn to let go this is not de 1st time u gt hurt by guys, u should change for de better or know where is de mistake n dun make de same mistake again, by not learning de mistake u still de same from de past.. U go think urself lah wat u really wan? Why u still accept to met "him" when u say u wann let go n dun think about him? When u will really grow up? u make urself look so checp in others ppl eyes do u noe that? I keep telling u all those logic i dun think u gt listen n went to think about wat i say loh.. Watever i say to u, u think is nth or say for fun? You shoukd go think why tee tian n felin dun wish to hang out with u, n dun think u treat them v well, maybe u just use them only... Everybody ask me to leave you but i nv did u ever go think of why i nv leave you? Coz i though u will change, change for de better but it seems that i'm wrong you are still de same aft few years.. if u dun wanna gt emo infront of ppl than dun listen to those emo song n refreash back de memory that u once had with him, do u noe wat's de meaning of letting go anot? Smoke drink beer all that is just an excuse.. You dare to tell ppl u noe me so long, but u dun even care or bother wat i say, dun even noe wat i dislike n like, dun even listen to wat i say..

Monday, April 25, 2011

26April 2011




(Memory of u & me)

when end work saw ur fb post n ah yi post on my wall de thing i dunno why i feel like crying my heart feel heavy. I would't tell de others how i feel even i wanna tell ppl how sad i'm now my mouth will stop me from saying, none of a word will come out of my mouth.. I dun wish to create more yao yan, i noe when i hav't break wif him i'm always close wif u bt now it's diff i just break n i dun wan them to say i break coz of u or watever, u can say i dumb so why must i care so much about wat they say, i just dun like de feeling.. u are not me how will u noe how much i feel right now? Even somtime i wish that u will surprise me by waiting at de staircase or my hus downstair n wait for me to go work, but i noe i'm just dreaming.. I'll went over to ur hus sometime to surprise u coz i wanna c u, my feet just wanna go ur hus n find u but i dunno why.. Thanks for letting me know that u have aldy stop loving me n going to give up.. How much u mean to me i'll just keep to myself u are forever my friend.. How gd u treat me will always keep inside my heart, hope u find a better girl who would't make u angry like i do.. I always di siao u or di siao ppl i dunno why i like to di siao ppl maybe it will make me laugh n happy for a time being so that i would't emo maybe this kind of method to di stress is not right n i should't di siao u.. I guess u will be happy few days later coz u no ned to take care a little, dumb, stupid n silly girl sorry to say that coz i'm just speaking the true.. U not ned to gt emo coz of me, i'll visit de hamster when i'm free, the pic really v cute.. I will have to grow strong 1 day so i'll go to the changi village myself, even if there's anything happen wif me also not anyone business it's my own business.. wo hai xiang ku, wo yao bian jian qiang, wo bu yao kao nan ren wo bu shi yi ge weak girl!! wo bu xiang yao jie ni de jian ban ku qi!! ni bu zhi dao wo de xin yao dou tong he nan shuo... good bye.. I dun think you will see this post since u say buy to me.. Maybe i should't post on the blog again rite, de way i msg u can't see my emotion i put hahas doesn't mean i'm happy if u emo n u dun wish to let de other ppl noe u will always put this to let ppl noe that u are fine..

Sunday, April 17, 2011

17 April 2011

Quarrel wif him on de phone, i did't mean to hurt him so much butyhis is de only way i can do to free myself.. Am i making de right decision? I really dun wish to gt into a relationship soon, i feel so tire de only thing i wanna do now is find a full time job quit sch n take private.. This is wat i wan now, Wish me good luck ba.. Slp whole day again guess i'm really v tire ba, just cut abit of my hair.. i need to straighten my fringe le... Plan to go for another Genting trip on Sept or Oct, must c wee tiong can take leave anot hahas.. Need to save money for many thing le... Jia you ba..

Thursday, April 14, 2011

15 April 2011

Saying break up wif him, chat for so long make me piss of n going crazy soon.. WTH.. I dun wanna bother anymore... FUCKING TIRE HATE U...

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Feel like crying...

11 April 2011

Dunno why i feel like asking u to send me to sch, but thanks anyway to accompany me to the MRT... I know u wouldn't be like last time le, i should change my bad habit n alot of thing i need to do.. If i ask u can i hug u again will u let me hug or reject me? Maybe i know the ans very well.. Guess u wouldn't c my blog again so no matter what i say is useless just talking to myself.. What my heart is thinking? either break n become single forever.. Make my decision to take private course, but the 1st thing to do now is to save money n find a full time job as for k box i temporary work as a part- time.. Did u really understand me well? will u know what I'm thinking now n do u know my feeling? U dunno how i feel how i wish i can dun bother about anything but all those stupid r/s thing n other thing keep coming to my door step n knock my door looking for me.. U dunno how badly i need a shoulder now, not everything i'll say out or talk to some1 I'm also a shy person, u dunno i need a lot of courage to say sth to ppl, sth that is difficult for girls to say.. U will never know it.. U wouldn't know how much i wish to hug u just now but the things that u said to me i know u have aldy change , it's gd that u have change to become stronger.. And i know i should do sth to slove my problem myself.. Love really hurt, n de true is more hurt than love n de reason i cry is becoz i noe a hurtful true... How i wish i dunno de true about him n that person so i would't feel so bad, is he taking revenge? Being close to a person mean flirt? Playing wif guy is flirt? U keep saying u trust me, but u didn't trust Jonathan that's why u dun let me go out with him? WTH u aldy told me de ans by saying that, u didn't trust me at all u dun trust.. Stop lying to yourself..

Saturday, April 9, 2011

9April 2011

Morning after work jonathan accompany me wait for aveline as it's wee tiong POP.. I meet her at cityhall mrt mac, me n jonathan went to marina square outside john little slack n chat around.. when aveline reach cityhall we than walk over to find her, chat alot of thing wif jonathan maybe i should think wat i wanna do now n not just hack care, there's sth we n hack care but not this relationship this.. Do i have a little feeling for u? Sign!! today otw back from garden there had a small quarrel wif him on de hp.. supper piss off.. Hais what my heart is thinking? jonathan n da tou dun really wish me to accompany aveline go wee tiong POP as i'll gt left out, as it's her bf for wat i go? Luckily jonathan accompany me go after i keep pleasing him haha.. Did't go work n attand de Sch committee thing, supper tire aft all de thing went home slp till nite than meet aveline, her bf n da tou for a dinner haha...