17 April 2011

Quarrel wif him on de phone, i did't mean to hurt him so much butyhis is de only way i can do to free myself.. Am i making de right decision? I really dun wish to gt into a relationship soon, i feel so tire de only thing i wanna do now is find a full time job quit sch n take private.. This is wat i wan now, Wish me good luck ba.. Slp whole day again guess i'm really v tire ba, just cut abit of my hair.. i need to straighten my fringe le... Plan to go for another Genting trip on Sept or Oct, must c wee tiong can take leave anot hahas.. Need to save money for many thing le... Jia you ba..

15 April 2011

Saying break up wif him, chat for so long make me piss of n going crazy soon.. WTH.. I dun wanna bother anymore... FUCKING TIRE HATE U...

Feel like crying...

11 April 2011

Dunno why i feel like asking u to send me to sch, but thanks anyway to accompany me to the MRT... I know u wouldn't be like last time le, i should change my bad habit n alot of thing i need to do.. If i ask u can i hug u again will u let me hug or reject me? Maybe i know the ans very well.. Guess u wouldn't c my blog again so no matter what i say is useless just talking to myself.. What my heart is thinking? either break n become single forever.. Make my decision to take private course, but the 1st thing to do now is to save money n find a full time job as for k box i temporary work as a part- time.. Did u really understand me well? will u know what I'm thinking now n do u know my feeling? U dunno how i feel how i wish i can dun bother about anything but all those stupid r/s thing n other thing keep coming to my door step n knock my door looking for me.. U dunno how badly i need a shoulder now, not everything i'll say out or talk to some1 I'm also a shy person, u dunno i need a lot of courage to say sth to ppl, sth that is difficult for girls to say.. U will never know it.. U wouldn't know how much i wish to hug u just now but the things that u said to me i know u have aldy change , it's gd that u have change to become stronger.. And i know i should do sth to slove my problem myself.. Love really hurt, n de true is more hurt than love n de reason i cry is becoz i noe a hurtful true... How i wish i dunno de true about him n that person so i would't feel so bad, is he taking revenge? Being close to a person mean flirt? Playing wif guy is flirt? U keep saying u trust me, but u didn't trust Jonathan that's why u dun let me go out with him? WTH u aldy told me de ans by saying that, u didn't trust me at all u dun trust.. Stop lying to yourself..

9April 2011

Morning after work jonathan accompany me wait for aveline as it's wee tiong POP.. I meet her at cityhall mrt mac, me n jonathan went to marina square outside john little slack n chat around.. when aveline reach cityhall we than walk over to find her, chat alot of thing wif jonathan maybe i should think wat i wanna do now n not just hack care, there's sth we n hack care but not this relationship this.. Do i have a little feeling for u? Sign!! today otw back from garden there had a small quarrel wif him on de hp.. supper piss off.. Hais what my heart is thinking? jonathan n da tou dun really wish me to accompany aveline go wee tiong POP as i'll gt left out, as it's her bf for wat i go? Luckily jonathan accompany me go after i keep pleasing him haha.. Did't go work n attand de Sch committee thing, supper tire aft all de thing went home slp till nite than meet aveline, her bf n da tou for a dinner haha...

7April 2011

Today working at Zone 1 saw 2 new full time server haha.. gt 1 guy look abit like xiao tou, n tat uniform tat he wear is dam nice than us, it's a black polo tee.. Work till 10 i going recept work till close not much customer today, but i dun like Mr jimmy friend those ppl at rm806 wam.. They always call jimmy here there for discount or Mr jimmy will give her friend FOC, let them smock inside or give special discount to them let them have de VIP Rm.. Today at briefing i was late n i dun like de thing tat he say in de briefing, was hard to work n i really feel v sian working at there.. Plus can say dunno is cold war wif him again or quarrel.. Sian ar.. I just wanna be alone awhile to cool down can't i? i just wann cry out can't i? Fine i dun wish to say anything le it's all my fault tat's it.., Ppl smoke, cut their wrist, take drugs drink alcholic to disstress but it's not use, i just now really feel like Buying cig or liqiour to disstress... I'm really tire if i really break i would't tep into relationship again it's so painful...

3April 2011

Went to sembawang Park wif J, from Yishun walk to sembawang Park hahas de distance is supper far... Watch movie wif him at yishun GV Sucker Punch.. Went to HG slack at a void deck at hou gang Green gt a group of ppl went to sit infront of us n chat loudly, they were like xiao lian v noisy n keep saying alot of vulgar... Dam it i feel so irritating..