Fun Time At Kbox Marina Square...

Monday 28 feb 2011

School again i guess yesterday i slp too much till morning i auto wake up but i still gt nua bed haha... went to sch at around 8.45 like tat haha.. my leg still v pain as de skin come out.. thanks to that high hill shoes.. Playing com in sch again as usual, feel like slping out of a sudden dunno why.. Teacher told me about my attance all tat n i really ned to think wat i really wan if i can't go to de course i wan, maybe i should try to like tis course ba... haha hais sian ar.. Either sch, Shopping, Slack Work or slp Nothing much to do in my life... Everyday liftstyle 4S n 1W daily 24hr life... Feel like gouing for a gym next time or play some sports wif friend, i've growing fatter n fatter le haha... Hais still feeling sad when i think of my lost money, why i did't put my wallet back to my bag aft buying drink why must be running around aft i buy de drink? Hais it's really a big shock for me to let me noe i lost my money when i buy de snack in de morning on sun 27 Feb 2011.. Feel sad n heart pain but wat can i do it's aldy gone n it would't come back again.. I maybe noe who steal my money but i can't confirm, sad my money arrrrr.. This is de second time i lost my money le why?? Am i too blur or careless? Sad TTM going EMO.. Feel hungry suddenly, stomach v empty.. Going to have lunch soon le wow... Great yea...

School

It's sch again... Hais I really dunno who i really love.. Did i love u or him? I'm v confues maybe i'm scare to accept guys that is working in kbox ba coz of all those ppl who like to talk behind ppl back.. Should i leave this outlet soon? I dunno why when we chat on de phone yesterday my tears come out.. Why it's u n why it's me? Why must i make a dicision between de two? Can i just being single n dun choose anyone.. Smetime i just feel like crying but my tears just dun wanna come out.. Now my favourite song will be XIN DONG & HE SE YU MO.. Can i just be alone for de rest of my life? Ppl always told me that being love is de most happiness things but maybe i dun think tat coz de person who love me suffer alot.. I always overslp maybe i'm too lazy to wake ba.. I noe that no 1 can replace ah yi coz he noe me well than other ppl.. Are u my other half? or maybe my other half is not hee yet? The hurt that u(wei jie) once give me i've try to heal it but did i forget how to love a person aft u left me? What is de feeling when u love a person? What is de feeling when u hug de person tat u love? What is de feeling when u hurt your love onces?? 

Stress

My dad ask me i still wanna study or not.. Maybe i should really think wat de hell i wan.. Sometime i ask myself in a relationship how can they be together for so long? I'll talk till here ba no time to talk got to do my own thing le..



EMO

Yestersay after wprk jasper bring me to ECP to relax n he bought a big bear gor me i name her Ci Xin as my fav monkey call Ci Ci n his name is jie xin haha... Suddenly think of my ex n why we break i feel like crying although i just drop a few tears, i try to hide it from him as i dun wan him to noe i was crying.. I dunno why i keep hugging him maybe i like to hug him coz i feel v comfortable? haha... Chat n play firework at there haha my rocket fail to fly sad haha.. We take cab to my hus there to prepare for sch n he went to de nearer coffee shop.. I noe there's no rite or wrong in a relationship n loving de wan that u should't not love is not ur fault.. Love is a v selfish, hurtful n painful things n i guess all those thing u have experince before.. Emo? by emo everyday also would't heal the pain for wat, n by hurting urself u would't destress so why must u hurt urself.. If hurting ourself will help us to destress i would like to try but sad to say i can't.. I really wanna take a rest i really cannot take it.. Being in de centre is hard but wat can i do? U always wanna hide ur emotional from me but it still can see through.. Sorry for making u walk around n keep neglect u when i'm wif my friend, but next time i really wanna go tour around hou gang on March maybe coz i'm having hoilday haha.. Tire tire tire i feel like sleeping i type this post n play FB till i feel like sleeping OMG i dun feel like doing her work so tire.. I dun wanna kell my brain cells for doing the work.. Hump i still ned to help marcus type de Resign Letter Hais tire ar... So many thing to do.. This month work so litter only but wat can i do my  classes end very late plus i gt things to do.. 1 week i try to work more than 3 time but always gt thing to do not friend ask for help if not is sch thing pop up on weekday.. Sian ar... HELP!!

Sch again.. i dunno why yesterday i hurt Jasper.. I noe de hurt i give him is like puting hundred of knift in to his heart n pull out at the same time, I'm sorry coz other than sorry i really dunno wat to say, even he dun wish me to say this word.. Sorry for what i did n sorry for making u fall in love wif me.. I love there's no rite or wrong in falling love but i dunno why.. Thanks for treating me so gd n be my listening ear when i'm in a low mood.. U are my 2nd guy friend that i will share my trouble with other than my ex- gan lao gong Ah yi... You are a gd n caring guy but maybe we dun have the fate to be together.. Giving up your love is really v painful.. but sorry. Maybe being friend is better than being a couple.. I'm happy coz i onces have u as my bf althought it's just few hr but i'm really happy.. All those things that u do for me i'll remember n keep it in my heart forever.. Love a person may not ned to be with her onces she's happy u will feel happy for her.. Sorry for letting your mood down when u see the msg that i send you yesterday.. Sch again and it's PE we run 4 round at the hall n play badminton...  I dunno why i keep sweating non- stop, there's no fan in the sports hall n i'm v hot, we play till v happy we keep laughing as there's many funny action haha.. Next time must bring towel to sch le coz v hot feel like going for a bath, haha.. After PE is our favourite luch break haha.., Eating time.. Went to 7-eleven n have our lunch n went to Co-op shop to buy drinks n went to our class for next lesson.. I dunno why i abit dun like cun yi maybe coz she would't make fun of u back when u make fun of her she'll think you are saying it true n not making fun of her or maybe she dun like ppl to make fun of her ba.. She keep beating me when i say her n teck lee.. Hais i dunno the course that i appeal can get in anot if cannot i dunno what i should do le.. hais Wander how's jasper kor kro.. HE's my Special friend to me.. maybe a 2nd ah yi ba..

school

Sch again i dunno how to do that assigment that the teacher wants us to do.. I suddenly feel v emo coz my application for april intake is unsuccessful.. WTH.. I suddenly feel v lost should i take back office skill or should i take private? I'm v confuess n stress.. Plus what da tou tell me in the morning make me feel stress n sian.. Feel like going to the beach later n ALONE!! Feel like crying out of a suddenly but i can't cry in the sch.. I'm nt a strong girl aft all... 

It's so boring... Hope i can transfer to other course if not i dunno how am i going to stay in this course... Hais.. Go sch always use com till dunno wat i can do le.. Sian wed got work hump this month must keep working n save money for my laptop... Help i very bore hump how i wish i can slp now..

Happy Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's day today, feel not excited about it although it's just 1 time in a year.. I dunno wat i'm thinking or feeling.. Hais.. last saturday watch movie with Jasper i dunno why i suddenly lie on his shoulder n i feel v secure.. I dunno why i have a though n tat's did i have a little feeling for him? I told myself not to think so much n continue watching that movie call homecoming.. It was a very nice movie, it's funny n meaningful i like it very much.. I try to make him happy coz i dun like to see him having a emo/ sad face, but i dunno why sometime i still make him angry.. He's a very good friend wish i dun wish to lose.. But i scare he will leave me 1 day n would't care about me again.. Sometime i like talking to him i dunno why n he's my 2nd guy friend that i'll tell them my Xin Shi.. Last time i'm very scare to tell ppl about my trouble n when i'm emo i'll be alone in a place look into the sky sitting down at a place for few minutes n went back to my hus.. I always think that i'm forever alone even i have a friend i think that they are not my friend i'm just like a toy to them, when they ned me they will come n find me but when they dun ned me they will throw me one side this kind of feeling make me hate making friends.. But wat can i do i really dun have de courage to trust anyone i'm scare.. I try not to let the one that care n love me worry about me, but sometime i fail to do that.. I always try to hide my emotional in work n sch but who know? I like going to a beach to look at the sea, stand at a side n feel de breeze it was so cool n relaxing it meke me feel better after that.. But i dunno when i'll have de time to go there again n with who or maybe i'll go there myself? Sometime being lonely is not bad but sometime you will feel scare without a reason...

 so sian... What u told me yesterday i'll remember de sorry for hurting ur heart again.. U should try to forget me n find a better girl than me.. In the 1st place maybe u should't have told me that u love me n wanna wait for me..

I Really don't wish to lose a friend again, If i know you will love me because i'm too caring n keep console you when u broke up with your ex maybe you would't fall in love with me and all those things would't happen, and everything will be alright but we can't change anything now...
One- sided love is very xin ku n it hurt when you see the person you love with his/her bf/gf together, why can't you just let go when you aldy know the person had a gf/bf?? Waiting for someone that may not be yours is really v toture right.. I noe you heart is pain n i can't do anything to heal back your heart coz i'm not yours...